For Azuhi - Totally chill (Or I will be someday)

[crowdad1]

As promised, it's not long before Daichi's knocking on Asahi's front door. This was... not how he expected this evening to go. He's still not sure he's the right person for this job. What does he know about being attracted to anyone? The few dates he's been on, it was always the girls doing the asking.

Which doesn't help. Because Asahi might be gay. Maybe. Which doesn't change how Daichi feels about him. It's just that throwing liking boys into is like trying to run advanced drills with cement blocks on both feet. Blindfolded. 

"Hello! Open up!"

...Oh well. His friend needs him. That's enough. Everything else will figure itself out!

Right!

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[azuhi]

Asahi is truly tempted to respond, to tell Daichi that actually, it's not like he's an unattractive guy, except that feels like a whole other revelation he's really not ready to talk about. It's not like he's about to confess his love, either, so maybe it's for the best that he not say anything at all--

And while he's agonizing over this, there's a knock on his door, and Asahi realizes that Daichi has actually come over.

He flings the front door open with something akin to disbelief, and then gapes a little, his cheeks flushed.

"Daichi! You're here??"

[crowdad1]

"Of course."

With that, Daichi's bustling in. Dropping a couple of bags by the door, toeing off his shoes - then wrapping Asahi into a firm hug.

[azuhi]

The hug blindsides Asahi, but after a moment of being frozen in shock, he cedes and hugs Daichi tightly back.

"Thank you, Daichi. I... I was scared to tell you, and I shouldn't have been."

[crowdad1]

"It's okay."

Daichi's used to things scaring Asahi. And this is - a pretty big one. Their Ace may be the size of a truck, but so is his heart. It's shattered under expectations before. With the added pressure of what he's just shared?

Honestly, Daichi's just glad Asahi's standing. Squeezes tight, as if he can pour all that into the hug.

Then, with one more squeeze, he pulls back.

"I brought food. Hungry?"

[azuhi]

It's so easy for Asahi to yield to Daichi's embrace; Daichi's arms are so strong, probably from all those receives, and it feels safe to be held by him. More than safe; Asahi's put at ease by Daichi's acceptance, even knowing that he's less straight than he'd like to be.

Daichi pulls away too soon, but Asahi manages not to complain. "Oh," he murmurs, noticing the bag in Daichi's hand for the first time. "Okay, yeah. Come in."

He steps aside to let Daichi in properly, knowing that Daichi knows the way to his room.

[crowdad1]

Daichi is determined to be Normal. He's aware that coming out - or partially out? - is important. Even so. It doesn't really matter who Asahi ends up dating, does it? Hard to picture, maybe...

"Great!"

He bustles in.

[azuhi]

Asahi is aware that he's still nervous, his breathing a bit heavy, but he decides to ignore it. Daichi is here. He's not repulsed, and he's not kicking him off of the team.

"Um! Let's go get something to drink? We have Pocari Sweat in the fridge, or I could make tea? Since you brought food."

[crowdad1]

Tea sounds good!

[Of course that means they need to wait for the tea. And Daichi doesn't want to just barge into Asahi's room without him. Or should he? Will it look like he's not comfortable doing that any more?

Okay. This isn't actually normal. And analyzing everything will only cause a headache.

Daichi leans against a counter.]

...So... do you want to talk about it?

[azuhi]

[He nods and fills the kettle, which he's fortunately set down before Daichi broaches the subject. Asahi startles a bit and is immediately upset with himself for doing so; it's not as if this wasn't going to come up.]

I guess... I mean, I've never really said it out loud before. I just... I'm relieved you don't hate me. But I'm scared it won't always be like that... because I want to tell Suga, too. That I... that I like boys.

[crowdad1]

I couldn't hate you.

[If anything's proved it, the last year had. Their friendships survived Asahi leaving the team. The awful gap yawning huge in their line, Nishinoya storming, the former Ace ducking his teammates at every turn. It was miserable.

Daichi doesn't think he could stand that again.

He whacks Asahi on the shoulder. Not hard enough to hurt, just needing the contact. Reassuring himself.]

And come on. Can you imagine Suga hating anyone?

ooc

[azuhi]

[I am so, so sorry. I have no idea how this happened, I completely lost track of this thread and honestly forgot it even existed until I found it in my thread tracking, and when I realized I was the one who dropped the ball I wanted to kick myself! Is this something you'd want to pick back up?]